Post-Avatar Feelings

korralations via benditlikekorra:
I’ve never felt like I belong anywhere. I’m weird that way, but I feel it’s something that a lot of tumblr can relate too.

I have friends. But every once in a while, they’ll be laughing about something I didn’t catch, and I’ll look at them and feel like I’m not quite what they are together, like I’m not part of that. As if I’m a stranger looking in.
Sometimes I’ll step back and look at my family, and feel like an outcast.

But there’s something about this song, about Avatar, that I just can’t articulate to people. It’s ineffable in a way, and I wish I could say it.
The way this simple song brings 62 episodes rushing back, how you wish you could unwatch it just to watch it again, how you remember how much your heart ached when it ended. There’s no other way to describe it but an ache, a twisting in the pit of your stomach because it was over. Over. You heard those closing credits, the song The End of Avatar, and it simply ached.

But just listening to Peace Excerpt somehow brings it all back. The time spent over the characters, the plot, the jokes, the sadness, the bittersweetness of it all.

It brings back Sokka’s jokes, Toph’s stomps, Katara’s search for her mother, Zuko and Azula’s heart wrenching battle of wills and family.

You start to remember the morals of it all, the genocide commentary, the race commentary, the sexism that it battled, the fact that you can relate to the characters.

Then you think of all of the people that feel the same way you do, except they can’t, because… there’s no way any of them get the same dull ache that you do just thinking about Avatar in its finality and wholeness. They say they do, but surely they don’t understand.

It’s a parting, a parting of ways. You just cling to this feeling, this feeling of relating to everyone, because why not? Because it would be too painful to let go, maybe. Because the show, the people in it and around it, have given so much, and you’ve gotten so much.
I don’t know. There’s just something about this song that makes me feel like - and maybe it’s just me - but for once in my life, I belong somewhere.

If you had that sinking feeling when Avatar ended, you are most definitely not alone. When Avatar ended, I was a wreck. On one hand, I was so happy to see such a beautiful show and to be a witness to the greatness of that show. On the other, I was also devastated to see it go and it’s left an ache that has never fully left me. 

Avatar taught me so many things about myself and the world, but most importantly, it taught me about the connections we make with others. I have a severe problem with letting things and people go, and to me those characters were people. But there is also a beauty in it knowing that you’ll have those memories always with you when you need them. And what’s even better is knowing that there are even more memories to make with others around you. 

As oreides stated, you are not alone. I feel alone often as well, and when I do, I too turn to Peace by The Track Team to find some solace. But truly, you aren’t alone. There are many who will care for you and relate with you completely and I know you’ll find them. And in case you forgot, you are an integral part of this fandom. You most definitely belong here. :)